Addicted!!!

For past two weeks, I haven’t been able to visit my blog friends, I m sorry about that. (I really missed you guys. But there were some reasons behind it.

First and foremost reason --> Rains. Due to rains that we received fortnight ago telephone lines were under water and that means no internet.

Second reason may be I was feeling that I was really addicted to internet. From the day internet connection was down I would switch on the modem every 5 minutes or so to check whether I could browse, but only to find that i couldn’t, made me more desperate. This continued for some days when I finally visited the cybercafé and posted the last entry It came to me that I am so dependant on cyber world.

When i was in school till 12th Standard i didn’t have a computer. Computer in those days was considered luxury and i remember myself once visiting my friend’s home, for he had asked me to pay visit, as he had brought a new PC. I was mesmerized by the games he played like age of empires 1 and NFS, so colorful they were(As the games I had played in computer lab of our school was Prince of Persia the old Dos version)! He didn’t allow me to even touch the keyboard and i really envied him. Deep inside my heart a desire to pursue some degree which has Computer associated with it grew strong, for that would force my father to buy me one PC and i could play games!

Luckily by god's grace i got an engineering seat in Information Technology and my dreams came true. And then the games, the internet, all came with it. Although nowadays I don’t play games, but internet, it has become part and parcel of my life. I have become restless without it.
So i made up my mind, unless the internet connection becomes stable, I wouldn’t surf.

Thanks Whim, Hannah, Robin and Parth and all others for caring about me. Love you all.

Quote:

Why is it drug addicts and computer aficionados are both called users? Clifford Stoll

Inculcating Discipline

When standing in queue for bus I often get annoyed by the people who don’t follow rules and just barge in to get inside the bus. Are we fools standing in queue for long? Are they the kings who just make their own rule and make their way into the bus without standing in line waiting for their turn?

I hate, when discipline, that is set, is broken. It really gets to the nerves when people don’t follow the rules.

Last Friday an event surprised me even more. We all were standing in queue at the bus stop. A woman arrived with her kid who was not more than 5 years old. She gave one glance at the queue and made up her mind not to stand in the queue. She whispered to her kid that when the bus arrives just sneak in from between, get in the bus and make a seat for her too.

I pitied her, for the fact that, this is how discipline is inculcated. When no importance is given to rules and when mother herself asks her kid to break the rule the society would be no better. Mind you I m not blaming the whole society but just one part of it.

Btw due to the rain it seems my internet connection is down. Weekends have been boring when there is no gmail and orkuting around. So after may be one and half years or so I m surfing from the cyber café. The sticky keyboard, small monitor, tiny cubicle, ha ha ha, back again.

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Because of their size, parents may be difficult to discipline properly - P. J. O'Rourke.

i - Count

Ok this post is for all those who put the rest aside and talk about just the ‘I’. I am the greatest, I can do this, I can do that. For all those who refuse to see others, just talks about himself as if he is the current big thing. For all those who believe that when he says the sun rises from the west, then we must take it for granted that it is the universal truth.

Come on, speak out. How many times have you used that I today and all those so called great things, that you supposed you did, did you do.?

I will give you some examples. Consider them as of the highest magnitude, would rate them 10 on 10, most hypothetical ones.

• I can climb Mt.Everest with my hands, myself all upside down!
• I can swim Atlantics with both my feet and hands tied!
• I write some lines in braces and when I compile and run the program it never fails, absolutely no error!
• I practice boxing with punching bags filled with pebbles!
• I taught lions how to roar.
• Street flooded with thousands of people make way for me on hearing the sound of the footsteps that I take a mile away!
  

If you can think of something that you have done in one of the 1000th part of what has been mentioned above, speak it out. It sure would be fun.

What are you waiting for? Begin the I-Count.

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First we practice sin, then defend it, then boast of it. -Thomas Manton.

Angry - Who me?

"Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret", says Ambrose Bierce

How i wish i could do that!

I had been a guy who seldom gets angry. But of late i get annoyed ever and anon. I hole up my emotions within me and don’t like to showcase it in public. I normally take a backseat when it comes to retaliating with words. So, it goes within me, within my heart, my mind all concealed up. But then too much stuffing gives me headache thinking about the incident.

I love to be alone when i am angry, so that i don’t speak with anyone and gradually get over it. Or i pray that i get angry during nights so that i can sleep over it. I said i hate to display emotions to the world but when it comes to my family i disembark my anger to them. And it’s just like i lost control of my tongue and am blabbering out absolute rubbish. The reason for not holding up my anger in front my parents (especially my mom) is maybe i think that they can understand me and my frustration. But then when I am alone and i think of it i feel like 'hell, what have i done? Why did i behave like that?' And then straightway go to my mom end up with lots of sorry and tears.

I know it’s not just me but everyone gets annoyed; turmoil of annoyance, sirocco of exasperation, whatever you call it, though most of us don’t admit it or display it. I know anger is a normal human emotion and to never feel annoyed is just like never be fully human. But i want to have more control over it. It should be like i must be governing anger and not the other way round. I don’t want to be a Mr. Hyde!

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“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.” - Lord Buddha

Hiding away from Agoraphobia

Agoraphobia,
originally uploaded by potsrme1962.

One of the problems i face, rather weakness i have, i must say is to cope up with new situation, surrounding or people. It comes to me as natural nervousness when i m surrounded with lot of people. A feeling to act as a lone man marooned among people not knowing what to do, how to behave, what to say engulfs me. In fact words dont come out, i feel sweaty all the time and it looks as if a strange sort of fear has been injected to most of my neurons making me behave the way i do. This naturally leads to frequent silly mistakes and it just adds to my nervousness.

I dont know what the reason is - my introvert nature, my hatred to socializing or should i say my inability to socializing coz that'z what it is; generally hatred for some thing arises due to lack of the ability or skill to do that thing.

Surprising is the fact that i tend to do things better when i am alone or my conscious mind is made to believe that there is no one around. So things like chatting and blogging go well with me where in there is a level of invisibility involved.

One of the work around or solution that i have found to escape this fear is to turn a blind eye and make myself feel that there is no one around though its not possible to apply in every field. And other thing that i most often do is to be with someone that i know well wherever i go ;)


Quote: I'm not exactly agoraphobic but I'm pretty close ... I'm really afraid to go out - Billy Bob Thornton

Think about it !!!

First of all apologies for not updating my blog for a long time. Well got lazy and didn’t get a topic to brood upon and haven’t got one right now too. So I am going blurt out absolute nonsense in this post.

“Hello” is a common word used when phoning anyone. Hasn’t it come as a surprise people tend to use this same word while calling or receiving calls? May be the first guy who ever used this word would have meant as a greeting and it continued as a trend. Why can’t we use ‘Hi, ‘greetings’ or any other word? I mean its ok and we can understand when the word ‘Over’ is used in walkie talkies because it’s a two-way half-duplex channel transceiver (only one radio transmits at a time, though any number can listen). But this is really funny. And the tone used to say this word also varies. It might be sometimes said as “Hello?” or “Hello!!!” or in Gujarati slang ‘Haalo’. Surprising isn’t it!!
So next time when that nokia 5300 of yours is ringing; pick it up and straight away shout a “What?” and enjoy the difference!!!

I was reading an article on the net “Indian Alcohol Policy Alliance- Drinking Drive Meet”. It’s mentioned in the article “40% road accidents in the national highway related to drinking driving”.40% -- This makes it a logical statement that 60% of accidents are due to driving without drinking! This adds to the joy of drinking. Not promoting drinking though.

In today’s world you can’t expect people to treat you fairly only because you are a good person. Isn’t it? I always try being a Mr. Nice Guy. It falsifies the favorite line of Armstrong Sir (One of my English sirs during school days) –“The world is like a mirror. Smile and the world smiles with you”. Sometimes it works but then most of the times people start taking advantage of it. And I can’t blame them either. Expecting to treat me the same way as I treat them is like expecting the lion not to attack you becoz you are a vegetarian. Howz that?

One of the most common words that come across these days while judging a person is “Attitude”. People of says “It’s all about attitude you show”, “He lacks good attitude”.
Well talking about attitude reminds me of a chapter on Mulla Nasruddin that we had in our school days. It was a funny guy with strange attitude. One of anecdotes revolving around him goes like this. “A ship was about to sink in the middle of sea. Everybody was running hither and thither. And among such panic Nasruddin was standing cool watching the hullabaloo. One of the aboard passengers asked – ‘Nasruddin why aren’t you running? The ship is sinking’. To which Nasruddin replied coolly – ‘So what? This ain’t my ship!!!’” To sum it up ‘Attitude is not about walking as if you own the world but about walking as if you don’t care who owns the world.’

Keep rocking guys.

Time Less Tales

What is this life if full of care
We have no time to stand and stare

are the lines of W.H.Davies from Leisure. How true his lines are. Most of us really don't have any time.
May be its because of studies or work whatever the case . In this material world where everyone's running after money have hardly any time. Ask anybody for some time, he would say he's busy. I heard an anecdote sometime back : "After 12 hours of work wherein a father goes for job early before his son awakes and returns late night when his son has gone to sleep. The child asks his mom who is this uncle who comes home every Sunday with lot of gifts".

I m not sure whom to blame. Should we blame ourselves who don't manage to spare some time or this competitive world that teaches us to follow Darwin's theory wherein we have to strive hard for survival?

By the way some of my friends have took to blogging. And Jay has even stuffed up couple of posts. Plz take time to read them. Here's the link:Le Voyage De La Vie'

BRAGOMANIA -I,me,myself

Often i come across people who like to brag about themselves. From bus to office and back from office to home the number i encounter has greatly increased. There is no area they dont know about. They always have a point to add. And they narrate such comic stories wherein they are the hero or centre of attraction. I love to hear their strange stories. This happens mostly in the bus i travel. From laborers to guys working in LifeStyle(mall) all love to boast about themselves.

This thing is good until one guy is a silent listener. If both are braggers then god save the rest. It normally leads to verbal debates, quarrels and even brawls. But i being a listener{here goes the word again 'I' being a listener. Bragging myself as a great listener :)} helps me judging others whether to idolize that guy or just listen. Its quite simple. 'The less you speak of your greatness, the more shall I think of it.'

There is another type of boasting and a strange one too. Its by criticizing others. I always do feel that criticizing others or making fun of others is a form of self boasting.

Its quite amusing and ironical that there are very few who actually walk the talk !!! Once again no offense boaster:) Enjoy this quote.

Mules are always boasting that their ancestors were horses.

Praise - A Necessity(But scarce)

Often i feel that in order for a man to raise up in any field he needs praise and support by counterparts or leader along with talent and skill.

No matter how talented u r whenever u step upto apply the learning in your field you need encouragement from others.'Wow nice work', 'well done' said by co-workers or lead in front of others certainly boosts confidence. On the other hand even though u r skillfull and some one tries to find faults in you in one and everything you do you feel let down. Gradually you start making mistakes unknowingly and specially when that person is watching you. Then a stage comes when you feel frightened to do the thing that once you love to do!!

In this age of competition its hard to praise others. Let me share a story of my school days that i had in one of my gujarati lectures. A sir drew a line on the board and asked students to make it short. Most of them rubbed the line from edges but that was not what sir wanted. He told u should make it short without touching the line. Finally when most of the students gave up he called his favorite student. He came and drew a longer line besides the line the sir had drawn!!!

Normally its a tendency of man to pull others leg in order to show his superiority :(

Bottomline "Encourage others, unsee their mistakes and help them". I know its hard to do!!!

18 till i die

Another year to add on to my arsenal accounting to 23 years. Well last year i gained one promotion(professional experience), some new friends, some weight, some wealth. I lost some innocence, some patience, time to enjoy. Well i have noticed that all these that i gain or lose behaves like climbing a mountain. At first while u begin from foothill u are innocent, have time but u are dependendent less knowledge no money. Slowly as u climb and reach the pinnacle u gain knowledge and money, u are less dependent but lose on innocence and time. Then as climb down everything goes back to where you have started.

Very much looking coming years.
And one last thing :- Come on what are you waiting for ? Give me birthday wishes :)